Not Fair Part Two

So this time it's me saying "Not Fair".  My sister Kelly is battling Renal Cell (Kidney) cancer again!!  She has a blog by the way - "This One Life" - Kelly Vaughan Beucler.

Here goes. 
-It's not fair that I have to see her suffer pain and discomfort on these drugs that are supposed to be helping.  Gracie says "Mommy, why do they give her drugs that have poison in it??" with a little shake or her sassy head.   Even though I know they are helping her - not fair.
-It's not fair that she felt she had to leave all of her dear friends and her quiet country life to come back to Florida just to be near us.  We love that she is back and we can help and support her but still....
-It's not fair that we have wasted so much time.
-It's not fair that her hands and feet burn.
-It's not fair that anyone who has so much life ahead has to battle this ugly disease.
-It's not fair that I don't get to hear her laugh as much.
-It's not fair that my younger sister runs out of energy before I do.
-It's not fair that there is no cure.

I could go on but feeling sorry for her and myself doesn't change anything.  Prayer does.  Hope does. Faith does.  But I'm a little angry at God.  I learned years ago that it was okay - He understands. 

Just needed to get that off my chest.  and God...I always love you but please - can you just fix this?

Moll